I’ve been through many friends. A few lovers, and plenty of family. I know what it is like to be used.  I know what it’s like to be betrayed. I know what it is like to see the people who you thought, got your back no matter what.. just leave. Bruh, I’ve seen it all. But, I am still that same person. Quick to say yes to a favor for a friend in need. Quick to give up a lot to make the other person happy. Quick to do anything for the person I love, cus I just feel like they deserve it. When I ask people to do things for me, I always thank them. Gave them recognition. I put myself on the line for a lot of people. Never asked for anything back. That is how I’ve been living.. Selfless. And I will remain that way.  

I am not here to inspire no body. I’m just living my life. And, just trying to guide people the right way if they ask for directions. 

I’m always scared that people are not actually there, they’re just here. I’m always have that feeling that I am going to get fucked over. But, only by people I care so much for. I just don’t want it to happen again. And, I always think to myself.. I’m better by myself cus, I won’t have to trust anyone but me. But, I don’t want to shut myself out. 

Don’t it suck when you gotta give up the shit you love the most, so you can just survive? I don’t have time to do shit anymore. I’m pissed off at myself more than anything. I can’t believe I let it come to this. I’m very disappointed in myself.

Why do people who have no control over your life, dare speak their mind? You don’t pay my bills, you don’t put food on my plate, and you’re not my fucking parent. Stay in your place bitch. You’re irrelevant. 

As much as we fight and I get to the point of hating you. You’re still are the one I lay to next at night. And, I wake up next to you. You’re still here. That means a lot.

Work, work, work.

I never try and sit there and try to make someone feel bad. I don’t need anyone’s sympathy. Some people are so inconsiderate or so self-centered to not think of other peoples feelings. But, when you try to explain it, you are either over reacting or they just blow it off.  I do wonder sometimes. If I treated certain people the same way, would it fly the same way? Would you still sit there and endure all the bull shit? And put up with how selfish and inconsiderate I am? I’m not asking for an eye. I’m just asking for some kind of understanding. 

I always try to give my 110%, even though people are giving me 25.

Cause that hand will straight up, smack the fuck out of you.

I wish I had a home girl that lived near me, who acts just like me.

I will say what I want, and what I think of you. I do not care ‘bout yo feelin’s.

(Source: amazingange)

I don’t got to prove shit to nobody. I know what I’m doing.